Lorraine reminded me today to be positive. I don't know what happened but once we hit the interstate I just was hit with a wave of anxiety. Uncontrollable unfiltered anxiety. I became negative. Was so for most of trip until hubby held my hand and helped me take a deep breath then stopped and got me a chocolate milkshake. Maybe I took to much Diabetic meds. I don't know but it was hard to breath. And Lorraine sensed it. I realized she kept checking me out. Watching my face. She teared up a few times for no real reason. She in small ways acted out. She sees me as this person who mostly but always shows up when Mommys weak and sick. I swoop in scoop them up and take care of them. So I think she sorta looks at me as a stabilizer?? So this insightful little thing was upset because she was reading my face. Wow!!!! When it hit me. It hit me hard. And instantly I changed. From that moment not one tear. It was smiles and laughs. People if a 2 yr old is that insightful to the emotional atmosphere think of the energy we send out by every word. Expression. Comment. And action. It was powerful. This little girl reinforced a major lesson. TY little one!!!!!

Lorraine reminded me today to be positive. I don't know what happened but once we hit the interstate I just was hit with a wave of anxiety. Uncontrollable unfiltered anxiety. I became negative. Was so for most of trip until hubby held my hand and helped me take a deep breath then stopped and got me a chocolate milkshake. Maybe I took to much Diabetic meds. I don't know but it was hard to breath. And Lorraine sensed it. I realized she kept checking me out. Watching my face. She teared up a few times for no real reason. She in small ways acted out. She sees me as this person who mostly but always shows up when Mommys weak and sick. I swoop in scoop them up and take care of them. So I think she sorta looks at me as a stabilizer?? So this insightful little thing was upset because she was reading my face. Wow!!!! When it hit me. It hit me hard. And instantly I changed. From that moment not one tear. It was smiles and laughs. People if a 2 yr old is that insightful to the emotional atmosphere think of the energy we send out by every word. Expression. Comment. And action. It was powerful. This little girl reinforced a major lesson. TY little one!!!!!
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September 04, 2015 at 05:36PM
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How does a great day go to crap. Bring me apparently.

How does a great day go to crap. Bring me apparently.
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September 04, 2015 at 02:57PM
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I've had some wine soooo you all know what that means. Mooshie time!!!!! I want to start with my hubby. He is the best. Yes you Rick Bell. You ALWAYS think of you're family first. You never ask for help. You love completely and wholly, you give it your all. You do the big stuff and the little stuff. ONLY YOU CAN FIND THE SILVER LINING IN A WIFE THAT TAKES HUNDREDS IF DOLLARS IN MEDICATIONS. LOL. DISCOUNT ON GAS at Krogger. Apparently he fills up for about 80cents a gallon because my meds run so high each month. My stepsons. Which I hate defining that way. You're 2 awesome men. Scott Bell is so driven so motivated so passionate gives of your whole self. Sappy though this is at your wedding I didn't cry till I saw all of you up there. Your dad. Your mom. Such a miracle created by two great people. Erica Conrad Bell. So beautiful so outgoing so joyful. And so full of spirit. Brandon Bell. Seeing your dad and mom hold your daughter that made me want to cry. To the chain of life. So lion king in the moment yet so real and raw. The way your dad held Lorraine in awe. Your quiet persistence. The way you find a path in life. You see so much of the grand design and make your own way. Aiyana Tewa Bell I see so many similarities in our lives. Ps for some reason FB is messing with me. I've done this twice now. But I see many things we have in common. You're strong. Say it real. I've been blessed to see you go from dating teen to wife. Always ready for the next adventure. Taking it in and creating something out of it. You have fun and express yourself. I've seen you struggle. Pick yourself up and move on. I've watched you become a mother and witnessed the beauty in you blossom. You express yourself and are full of adventure. Lorraine Bell. So full of spunk and strength. So self processed from the beginning. You do what you want when you want on you're time not ours. You never rest till its figured out. Always with the figuring it out. Your tear it down to see how it works. You capture us with all your expressions multiple as they are!!!Jessica Diane Zelaya independent artsy willful you were born seeing the world different and went about making it what you want. Expressing yourself in your home and life. And in doing so taking care of you're great Aunt Sissy. Blazing a unique path in your life. Scott Zelaya so smart do educated curious in all things, it says a lot that you moved away from all you knew to follow your love and help clean up a neglected home find a job and create a life in a place you knew no one. Rowan. So sweet. So happy. Eyes wide like you are trying to suck it all in. Exploring everything fully before moving on to the next thing. You want to understand it all. And you light up with that bountiful smile of yours. Dimples cleft and ALL!! Lanie Bell you came in behind the eight ball and never stopped trying to excel. You pride yourself on figuring it out. On meeting standards and goals. You love your family ferociously. And seek knowledge. Your kind and polite, thoughtful and ambitious. God has blessed me more than I deserve. And if this heart full of love is the trade of poor health then thank you Lord it was a good trade. I try not to get mushy much but tonight is one of those nights where you want to lay your head down and say. Tonight I'm ready. Nothing but good. You're greatness is noted and thanked humbly. God bless and may you each see the unique gift the lord has given you in this short life.

I've had some wine soooo you all know what that means. Mooshie time!!!!! I want to start with my hubby. He is the best. Yes you Rick Bell. You ALWAYS think of you're family first. You never ask for help. You love completely and wholly, you give it your all. You do the big stuff and the little stuff. ONLY YOU CAN FIND THE SILVER LINING IN A WIFE THAT TAKES HUNDREDS IF DOLLARS IN MEDICATIONS. LOL. DISCOUNT ON GAS at Krogger. Apparently he fills up for about 80cents a gallon because my meds run so high each month. My stepsons. Which I hate defining that way. You're 2 awesome men. Scott Bell is so driven so motivated so passionate gives of your whole self. Sappy though this is at your wedding I didn't cry till I saw all of you up there. Your dad. Your mom. Such a miracle created by two great people. Erica Conrad Bell. So beautiful so outgoing so joyful. And so full of spirit. Brandon Bell. Seeing your dad and mom hold your daughter that made me want to cry. To the chain of life. So lion king in the moment yet so real and raw. The way your dad held Lorraine in awe. Your quiet persistence. The way you find a path in life. You see so much of the grand design and make your own way. Aiyana Tewa Bell I see so many similarities in our lives. Ps for some reason FB is messing with me. I've done this twice now. But I see many things we have in common. You're strong. Say it real. I've been blessed to see you go from dating teen to wife. Always ready for the next adventure. Taking it in and creating something out of it. You have fun and express yourself. I've seen you struggle. Pick yourself up and move on. I've watched you become a mother and witnessed the beauty in you blossom. You express yourself and are full of adventure. Lorraine Bell. So full of spunk and strength. So self processed from the beginning. You do what you want when you want on you're time not ours. You never rest till its figured out. Always with the figuring it out. Your tear it down to see how it works. You capture us with all your expressions multiple as they are!!!Jessica Diane Zelaya independent artsy willful you were born seeing the world different and went about making it what you want. Expressing yourself in your home and life. And in doing so taking care of you're great Aunt Sissy. Blazing a unique path in your life. Scott Zelaya so smart do educated curious in all things, it says a lot that you moved away from all you knew to follow your love and help clean up a neglected home find a job and create a life in a place you knew no one. Rowan. So sweet. So happy. Eyes wide like you are trying to suck it all in. Exploring everything fully before moving on to the next thing. You want to understand it all. And you light up with that bountiful smile of yours. Dimples cleft and ALL!! Lanie Bell you came in behind the eight ball and never stopped trying to excel. You pride yourself on figuring it out. On meeting standards and goals. You love your family ferociously. And seek knowledge. Your kind and polite, thoughtful and ambitious. God has blessed me more than I deserve. And if this heart full of love is the trade of poor health then thank you Lord it was a good trade. I try not to get mushy much but tonight is one of those nights where you want to lay your head down and say. Tonight I'm ready. Nothing but good. You're greatness is noted and thanked humbly. God bless and may you each see the unique gift the lord has given you in this short life.
by Sandy Bell

September 04, 2015 at 12:46AM
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I spoke with Dr Prickett and he wants me to go back to River City. I'm humbled and flattered by his praise. Most of us nurses get so little praise. It's mostly why didn't you do this or that we leave often feeling defeated or a failure. I don't ask for complementary feed back. I just keep doing my best putting patients first. It's great to know that someone who never said it to my face noticed. I grew so much at River City both in my compassion with patients but with myself and coworkers. Again I say it's enough. I am enough. We are all enough! I'm thankful for each moment. And every kindness. God bless you today

I spoke with Dr Prickett and he wants me to go back to River City. I'm humbled and flattered by his praise. Most of us nurses get so little praise. It's mostly why didn't you do this or that we leave often feeling defeated or a failure. I don't ask for complementary feed back. I just keep doing my best putting patients first. It's great to know that someone who never said it to my face noticed. I grew so much at River City both in my compassion with patients but with myself and coworkers. Again I say it's enough. I am enough. We are all enough! I'm thankful for each moment. And every kindness. God bless you today
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September 02, 2015 at 08:44AM
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Ok so I don't normally do testimonals.....but I'm a firm believer that when you feel your higher power working in your life... share the hope..... if you saw my post over the weekend I had professed to be humbled and open to divine intervention..... I states I was open and accepting. So with my former job situation.... I didn't really want to leave but felt pushed into it..... to that end I felt I had to live with missing those that I think are so awesome and the patient care my job let me do..... I thought that was it..... but then Admin changed up...... corporate intervened and things got shaken up and changed. Friday I called and spoke with Vickie about possibly returning to work......I had mention that for me to return it would entail a humbling on BOTH parts and that it would all be what it would be..... to me it seemed a prime time to return with all the changes going on.......Ive been praying hard for a long time.... so anyway Vickie said she'd have to get approval..... its been mostly 2 days since I spoke with her and I had left a message 5 days before that..... so it felt to me I wasn't welcome.... and that fine since I have a job..... and don't really NEED to change. But I miss so many coworkers..... its the first place that started to feel like home to me since I worked at DMH........well I get to work... have a moment and checked my cell phone...... Dr Prickett had called me and left me a message ASKING me to come back to work at River City.......talk about flattering and making me feel better...... it also was clearly the hand of my higher power working in my life..... I just call the Assistant Admin.... left a message..... we'll see...... so again I say I have faith ....... I am in no rush...... I accept what I have as enough...... there are some pretty GREAT people working at USA as well.......f thought I'd share because it is clearly an answer to a request......

Ok so I don't normally do testimonals.....but I'm a firm believer that when you feel your higher power working in your life... share the hope..... if you saw my post over the weekend I had professed to be humbled and open to divine intervention..... I states I was open and accepting. So with my former job situation.... I didn't really want to leave but felt pushed into it..... to that end I felt I had to live with missing those that I think are so awesome and the patient care my job let me do..... I thought that was it..... but then Admin changed up...... corporate intervened and things got shaken up and changed. Friday I called and spoke with Vickie about possibly returning to work......I had mention that for me to return it would entail a humbling on BOTH parts and that it would all be what it would be..... to me it seemed a prime time to return with all the changes going on.......Ive been praying hard for a long time.... so anyway Vickie said she'd have to get approval..... its been mostly 2 days since I spoke with her and I had left a message 5 days before that..... so it felt to me I wasn't welcome.... and that fine since I have a job..... and don't really NEED to change. But I miss so many coworkers..... its the first place that started to feel like home to me since I worked at DMH........well I get to work... have a moment and checked my cell phone...... Dr Prickett had called me and left me a message ASKING me to come back to work at River City.......talk about flattering and making me feel better...... it also was clearly the hand of my higher power working in my life..... I just call the Assistant Admin.... left a message..... we'll see...... so again I say I have faith ....... I am in no rush...... I accept what I have as enough...... there are some pretty GREAT people working at USA as well.......f thought I'd share because it is clearly an answer to a request......
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September 01, 2015 at 08:40AM
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It's pole position and I'm winning

It's pole position and I'm winning
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September 01, 2015 at 06:53AM
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